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Madrugada
04:37
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In the predawn hours when the world is quiet
The time when I struggle and write about why it
Must be that each day I face what it means
To be lost in my thoughts and tangled in dreams
I’m not dumb but I can’t understand
Why I ponder the universe while holding your hand
I think in Times New Roman
I write sentences in moments
I hear music in white noise
I see patterns in the void
It’s harder to create than to destroy
and I’m paranoid
Music is really essentially math
Following rules that I don’t comprehend
I take all my cues from the movements of air
and color my time from beginning to end
When the universe stands this still I might find
The dimensional question that’s captured my mind
Time flows all around but we just see a line
Where we live out our days just the same, yours and mine
Time’s arrow flies in the path of a dove
Which falls from the sky instead of rising above
Your love will return to the love that created your love
which lives on in the people you love
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Amaryllis (Winter Bloom)
05:20
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3. |
A Flower For You
05:01
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If April is the cruelest month
then summer makes it worth our while
If all of us are born to die
then I want to live with grace and style
Everyone dies, all things go
Change is the only constant we know
Love is the message, have no fear
Give your people their flowers while they’re here
The depths of us remain unknown and only you can chart
The sacred space you occupy in the darkest corners of my heart
You brighten the corners wherever you are
You make me burn hot like I’ve swallowed a star
Everyone dies, all things go
Change is the only constant we know
Love is the message, have no fear
Give your people their flowers while they’re here
If I love you but I’ve hurt you, please know I own it all
I’d like to say all that and more to you on a telephone call
I used to hate the phone but now it seems the only way
To brighten up a friend who’s feeling down and save their day
Everyone dies, all things go
Change is the only constant we know
Love is the message, have no fear
Give your people their flowers while they’re here
I speak in incantations, feel my history in my bones
As long as I breathe air and bleed, I’ll never walk alone
And all my great dead teachers come in dreams, one by one
To show me what it really means when you adopt someone
Everyone dies, all things go
Change is the only constant we know
Love is the message, have no fear
Give your people their flowers while they’re here
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Moonflower (Night Bloom)
05:42
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Nightblue
04:42
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The sweetness makes you sick when you go wild
You’ve been this way ever since you were a child
You speak in code and the words come out as prose
As the powder works its way up through your nose
You never expected your life to take this twist
A bipolar bisexual bicoastal bicyclist
But now you can love all the things that you like
As you ride through your city at night on your bike
The darkness of night looks the deepest of blue
You know bad things happened, and they happened to you
You feel awful tonight but it’s different than before
You feel awful tonight in a way you can’t ignore
It feels so essential and you’ve tried for so long
To explore love and death in the form of a pop song
The nightblue emotion that strikes at your heart
when the motor gives out and your engine won’t start
This is your night in Gethsemane
Screaming and singing in counterpoint harmony
Joy is contained in the void where you spin
Your fate is your own, your stone is your thing
A universe with no master isn’t futile or sterile
Each atom of the stone in itself forms a world
You watch the stone roll and go down to restart
The struggle toward the heights is enough to fill your heart
The blue of the night glows up rosy with dawn
And gives way to a grayness stretching onward and on
The light is open, the sky is torn
As bright and wet as the day you were born
And before you was born, on some velvet morning,
When your dad knew your mom but you weren’t in the running,
You wonder how the light hit them
on days just like this way back then
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Cholla (Desert Bloom)
03:23
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7. |
Howl (For Eric)
05:49
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Entanglement always bedevils
Those who get down to the quantum level
My heart moves when yours moves
It inflames with your pain
It gets just as wet under your steady rain
You threw our hearts upon a pyre
You set the wedding bouquet on fire
Running down from what you found
in your repressed desires
Stare in the deepest eye
You still don’t know you’re going to die
I smell your neck and hair
In the heavy dripping air
From all the longest hugs we’ve shared together you and I
I’m with you Eric
In the hospital at night
I’m with you Eric
Under a billion points of light
I’m with you Eric
In the breezy desert air
I’m with you Eric
Whether or not you know or care
Eric just get better
It’s the only thing that matters
Eric please get better
It’s the only thing that matters
Eric you can’t see anything
All you see is you
The trip you’re on is a one way mirror
You’re on the side you can’t see through
I dreamed you drove across the country and walked up to my door
We sat under a redwood tree and settled up the score
An atmospheric river has been flowing every night
Dumping rain on all my stupid notions of what’s right
I’m lost without you Eric and that’s an understatement
Far out from the shore or sprawled out on the pavement
Eric you have always been an impish little elf
But now I don’t know if or when you’ll ever be yourself
I’m with you Eric
In Chicago’s winter and its wind
I’m with you Eric
In the room where I hope they’ve got you pinned
I’m with you Eric
In the hills of eucalyptus trees
I’m with you Eric
Where you aren’t and might not ever be
Eric just get better
It’s the only thing that matters
Eric please get better
It’s the only thing that matters
If there’s a god who lets this happen then I hope we never meet
His holy ass should pray he never sees me on the street
His holy ass will good and thoroughly get beat
By me and all my evil friends
And after all this really ends
If it’s this god’s heaven then I don’t want to go
My evil friends and I will gladly party on below
Attention must be paid
The groundwork must be laid
I see the aims of William James
How life’s experience is made
Our love is a bridge between you and me
And everyone else who ceases to be
Who ever loved your multifarious self
And contributed to your emotional wealth
I’m with you Eric
And I’m with your sacred wife
I’m with you Eric
For the rest of your damn life
I’m with you Eric
Despite these feelings so wrong
I’m with you Eric
I’m still singing you songs
Eric just get better
It’s the only thing that matters
Eric please get better
It’s the only thing that matters
Eric please get better dude
You’re not the only one it matters to
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Poppy (Super Bloom)
06:50
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9. |
The Way You Were Loved
02:51
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I’d like to hang out by a body of water
With both of my sisters and their daughters
My mom and my dad in the yard after dark
Keara and Matthew and good old Mark
There’s miss Margot and Josephine
A summer tomato and a jumping bean
There she stands, miss Frances Anne
I see the whole lot of them whenever I can
And I will sing for you
For what you got me through
In the places we’ve been to
I will sing for you
The way you were loved
shapes all of the love that you’ll give in your life
And loving your others the way you were loved
is the way you keep those who loved you alive
So I will sing you songs
Long after you are gone
As the years stretch on and on
I will sing you songs
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