In the predawn hours when the world is quiet The time when I struggle and write about why it Must be that each day I face what it means To be lost in my thoughts and tangled in dreams I’m not dumb but I can’t understand Why I ponder the universe while holding your hand I think in Times New Roman I write sentences in moments I hear music in white noise I see patterns in the void It’s harder to create than to destroy and I’m paranoid Music is really essentially math Following rules that I don’t comprehend I take all my cues from the movements of air and color my time from beginning to end When the universe stands this still I might find The dimensional question that’s captured my mind Time flows all around but we just see a line Where we live out our days just the same, yours and mine Time’s arrow flies in the path of a dove Which falls from the sky instead of rising above Your love will return to the love that created your love which lives on in the people you love

If April is the cruelest month then summer makes it worth our while If all of us are born to die then I want to live with grace and style Everyone dies, all things go Change is the only constant we know Love is the message, have no fear Give your people their flowers while they’re here The depths of us remain unknown and only you can chart The sacred space you occupy in the darkest corners of my heart You brighten the corners wherever you are You make me burn hot like I’ve swallowed a star Everyone dies, all things go Change is the only constant we know Love is the message, have no fear Give your people their flowers while they’re here If I love you but I’ve hurt you, please know I own it all I’d like to say all that and more to you on a telephone call I used to hate the phone but now it seems the only way To brighten up a friend who’s feeling down and save their day Everyone dies, all things go Change is the only constant we know Love is the message, have no fear Give your people their flowers while they’re here I speak in incantations, feel my history in my bones As long as I breathe air and bleed, I’ll never walk alone And all my great dead teachers come in dreams, one by one To show me what it really means when you adopt someone Everyone dies, all things go Change is the only constant we know Love is the message, have no fear Give your people their flowers while they’re here

The sweetness makes you sick when you go wild You’ve been this way ever since you were a child You speak in code and the words come out as prose As the powder works its way up through your nose You never expected your life to take this twist A bipolar bisexual bicoastal bicyclist But now you can love all the things that you like As you ride through your city at night on your bike The darkness of night looks the deepest of blue You know bad things happened, and they happened to you You feel awful tonight but it’s different than before You feel awful tonight in a way you can’t ignore It feels so essential and you’ve tried for so long To explore love and death in the form of a pop song The nightblue emotion that strikes at your heart when the motor gives out and your engine won’t start This is your night in Gethsemane Screaming and singing in counterpoint harmony Joy is contained in the void where you spin Your fate is your own, your stone is your thing A universe with no master isn’t futile or sterile Each atom of the stone in itself forms a world You watch the stone roll and go down to restart The struggle toward the heights is enough to fill your heart The blue of the night glows up rosy with dawn And gives way to a grayness stretching onward and on The light is open, the sky is torn As bright and wet as the day you were born And before you was born, on some velvet morning, When your dad knew your mom but you weren’t in the running, You wonder how the light hit them on days just like this way back then

Entanglement always bedevils Those who get down to the quantum level My heart moves when yours moves It inflames with your pain It gets just as wet under your steady rain You threw our hearts upon a pyre You set the wedding bouquet on fire Running down from what you found in your repressed desires Stare in the deepest eye You still don’t know you’re going to die I smell your neck and hair In the heavy dripping air From all the longest hugs we’ve shared together you and I I’m with you Eric In the hospital at night I’m with you Eric Under a billion points of light I’m with you Eric In the breezy desert air I’m with you Eric Whether or not you know or care Eric just get better It’s the only thing that matters Eric please get better It’s the only thing that matters Eric you can’t see anything All you see is you The trip you’re on is a one way mirror You’re on the side you can’t see through I dreamed you drove across the country and walked up to my door We sat under a redwood tree and settled up the score An atmospheric river has been flowing every night Dumping rain on all my stupid notions of what’s right I’m lost without you Eric and that’s an understatement Far out from the shore or sprawled out on the pavement Eric you have always been an impish little elf But now I don’t know if or when you’ll ever be yourself I’m with you Eric In Chicago’s winter and its wind I’m with you Eric In the room where I hope they’ve got you pinned I’m with you Eric In the hills of eucalyptus trees I’m with you Eric Where you aren’t and might not ever be Eric just get better It’s the only thing that matters Eric please get better It’s the only thing that matters If there’s a god who lets this happen then I hope we never meet His holy ass should pray he never sees me on the street His holy ass will good and thoroughly get beat By me and all my evil friends And after all this really ends If it’s this god’s heaven then I don’t want to go My evil friends and I will gladly party on below Attention must be paid The groundwork must be laid I see the aims of William James How life’s experience is made Our love is a bridge between you and me And everyone else who ceases to be Who ever loved your multifarious self And contributed to your emotional wealth I’m with you Eric And I’m with your sacred wife I’m with you Eric For the rest of your damn life I’m with you Eric Despite these feelings so wrong I’m with you Eric I’m still singing you songs Eric just get better It’s the only thing that matters Eric please get better It’s the only thing that matters Eric please get better dude You’re not the only one it matters to

I’d like to hang out by a body of water With both of my sisters and their daughters My mom and my dad in the yard after dark Keara and Matthew and good old Mark There’s miss Margot and Josephine A summer tomato and a jumping bean There she stands, miss Frances Anne I see the whole lot of them whenever I can And I will sing for you For what you got me through In the places we’ve been to I will sing for you The way you were loved shapes all of the love that you’ll give in your life And loving your others the way you were loved is the way you keep those who loved you alive So I will sing you songs Long after you are gone As the years stretch on and on I will sing you songs